I Live For Moments Like This

My first entry for 2011. I have not laid out my plan for this year yet, Insya Allah soon whenI can warm my seat enough to do a little bit of thinking instead of rushing here and there.

Time to whine, haha.

I have been working day AND night since the last week of December 2010 and returning home around 10ish nearly everyday, I have not much leisure time, let alone blogging. Even sitting down to reflect on the achievements and laying out plans for this year. Last Friday , we had another late Friday night  at the office again. After apologizing to hubby who is patiently waiting for me (yet again, sorry dear) for five freaking weeks in a row so we drove straight to  Sports Barn PJ for his weekly futsal game.

I was in my complete office attire - a baju kurung with my ever faithful Neverfull MM in Damier slung over my shoulder.  While hubby went  over to deliver a (or ten) goals, I sat at the mini cafe and looked around for some reading materials. Football magazines, golf and Entrepreneur magazine from the year 2008. I wont even look at my BB screen to do any Internet surfing with that miniscule screen cause I am that tired you know - although it would be handy if I have an iPad *tehehehe*

So there I was, in a formal attire and has yet to refresh myself since morning, sitting in a mini cafe while reading an old entrepreneurial magazine in a place full of  sweaty and smelly  men. Including yours truly significant other :P

I can tell you this is not the most comfortable feeling.

I can feel my emotions rising up - sometimes its unbearable. Those close to me would know what  I am feeling. Sometimes I think the best thing to do is just do it no matter how unhappy you are and not think about learning opportunities, career advancement and etcetera. I know myself, routines kills me softly and the way it is now, well...you get my drift. Hehehe.

I read about Steve Jobs predicament (see its not a bad thing me grabbing an old entpreneurial mag) about how life is really short and really, you should fight on what you believe for and live like its your last day. Its really inspiring!

After his game Hubby suggested a quick supper in Uptown - they have the best char koay teow, yong tow foo and otak-otak. I quicky finished three otak-otaks and while I watched hubby eating his sotong kangkung, suddenly the resident busker came in front of our table and sang...

Insya allah....

Everytime you feel like you cannot go on


You feel so lost


That your so alone


All you is see is night


And darkness all around


You feel so helpless


You can’t see which way to go


Don’t despair and never loose hope


Cause Allah is always by your side


Insha Allah x3


Insya Allah you’ll find your way


Everytime you commit one more mistake


You feel you can’t repent


And that its way too late


Your’re so confused, wrong decisions you have made


Haunt your mind and your heart is full of shame


Don’t despair and never loose hope


Cause Allah is always by your side


Insha Allah x3


Insya Allah you’ll find your way


Insha Allah x3


Insya Allah you’ll find your way


Turn to Allah


He’s never far away


Put your trust in Him


Raise your hands and pray




OOO Ya Allah


Guide my steps don’t let me go astray


You’re the only one that showed me the way,


Showed me the way x2


Insyaallah x3


Insya Allah we’ll find the way


You know, moments like this is really WORTH remembering.

P/S: It made me teary eyed, the ratu air mata.